Spiritual Life Conference 2017
Funeral
Just a little Wunlanyili for perspective
Easter
Water Tank!
A Life Lesson
It has been hot here. I am talking over 100 degrees daily. March and April are always like this. I have known that it is hot up here. When I lived in Accra I knew it...but to experience it on a daily basis is a different thing. To live in it is a different thing.I am usually the queen of sleep. Anytime, anywhere, I can fall asleep. I think it's a gift. It is wonderful, I don't take it for granted. Since the beginning of March my sleep has become not so gifted (or is it me who is losing her gift?). The nights are too hot. There is a rare breeze. Yes, I have a fan but it just blows the warm air around. It is like the air that comes out of your car heater in the winter. It is that warm. Not so good for sleeping.But I can do this. I can force myself to fall asleep...well...some nights. And WOW do I wake up cranky after a night where I don't fall asleep until 2 am. It has not helped me in language learning. Let me be really honest and tell you when I was in a yellow-yellow around 4pm heading for a language lesson I just wanted to weep. I didn't want to go. I was so tired. But I felt like a wus if I didn't go. (I did go) I haven't been speaking much because, well, for one, I am not good, and two I am too tired to think. And then I get angry at myself and march back home trying to get away from even more heat. Ugh. I am not napping during the day. I have no caffeine or sugar going into my body. There is no reason for me not to sleep. I usually read a slow book to fall asleep and then when my eyes are closing, I slowly put my kindle down...and sleep...NOT! WHAMMO! My eyes bug open and I practically drum my fingers. What is up with that??With it being so hot, though, I am learning how to deal. So, I would like to share with you my little night time routine.It all starts around 8pm where I shower or bucket shower depending on if we have water.Then I get into bed with the fan on high.I also need to have a towel which I put under my neck so I don't ruin my pillow and pillowcase with all my sweat. Necks really sweat! Who knew!?And last but not least I get a water bottle which I have put in the freezer in the morning and I hold on to it.Now, maybe you are thinking that I may spoil my mattress with all the water. I thought so too. And just to be safe I try to only soak the front of my pj's and I hold the ice bottle on my belly. But usually any water dries so fast that I no longer worry about mold or whatever growing in my mattress. And if it does, well, so be it.So, these are little life lessons on how to sleep in hot weather.Please be praying for me. It is so hot here to go out and sit with people and I make excuses. I. can. do. it. Don't feel sorry for me. Even right now, I am thinking to myself, "plan out where you will go, who will you visit" so that I can be ready and get thru it. It should be a somewhat distraction-less week. A great week to learn Dagbani. Let me say that again, A Great Week To Learn Dagbani!!!Love You.
Naming Ceremony
Fetching Water
A Week Worth of Distractions
Hot has Come
When I came back to Tamale from Tumu I sensed the weather being a bit thicker. It is always hot here but there has been a beautiful dryness that keeps one alive and unsweaty. I don't mind the heat when it is so dry.BUT...that all ended. This batch of humidity swept thru on Friday and Saturday. The power went off for a little bit-which means no fans and there was no breeze. Sunday morning around 1am the power went off again. A quick storm came thru and we had a bit of rain and wind. Damary and I both came out of our rooms because we were so hot with no fans to cool us. Thankfully, that wind helped but once the rain stopped so did the wind.It.Was. Brutal. At church that Sunday morning one man came to me and said, "last night I suffered-oooo!" I thought, if he is Ghanaian and suffering then this must be bad!The weather has continued on this same humid streak since then. March and April are the hot months and we have been warned. This whole week it has been around 100+ degrees with humidity around 20% compared to when it was almost 0%. My job is to walk around practicing Dagbani with people. It is sooooo hot. I am exhausted. Everything in me is drained.The nights have been even worse. It doesn't really cool down and it seems my fan loves to just blow hot air around. Before I sleep I like to read and I was laying on my back with my knees bent and under my knees sweat was pouring and it was trailing down the back of my thighs. UGH. Also, I am usually the queen of sleep, like I have a gift, but not this week. I have not been able to fall asleep even though I can barely keep going. And I wake up during the night. And when I wake up I find my pillow and sheets soaked with sweat. It is gross.Damary and I just look at each other in the morning and say, "how was your sleep?" and we don't even need to answer, we know it was too hot to sleep. I have not had a quiet time since Tuesday because I can't fall asleep and stay asleep and so in the mornings I cannot get up. I tell Jesus I just can't. I am too tired. I know he understands. But I find myself kind-of missing him. So, maybe I will do my time with him in that time when I can't fall asleep. We will see.Enough of this complaining. It is Africa, what do you expect!?Anyways, I will persevere! This month and April have the potential to be really good language months because I will not be traveling or have any other distractions. One thing you can pray for is that I would be bold to speak. Me? Not bold to speak?? Hardly!! But with Dagbani I find it is easier just to listen to conversation and be lazy, though I know listening is good too. But if I don't use/talk the new phrases and words I am learning I will never really have it. When I did try to say a new sentence one lady, who doesn't speak English, just shook her head and said, "Oooo Wunzooyea". Meaning, I have no idea what you are saying. That made me to be a bit more timid and hesitant to try again. Please be praying.I think I may have found a new motivation-- ice cream. When I was in the lovely land of Burkina (you can read that in my previous post) I bought cream (along with other things) and with that cream I made ice cream! Then I thought, since I love Culvers, maybe I should try custard ice cream. So, I made some of that too. It is not exactly the same, but still. AND I have just a bit of cream left and I found a copycat recipe of Dairy Queen's soft serve ice cream. I will try that and see how it goes. Maybe if I do well with language then I get me a little treatie-weatie right? It doesn't really fit into my 21 day fix eating plan but how many of those crazies are in 100 degree weather learning Dagbani? Yeah, exactly. :)Love you all.
Ouagadougou, Burkina Faso
Walking In My Neighborhood
Flexible
I really should not be writing right now. I am a bit cranky. Missionaries are told we have to be flexible. Yeah, cool, I am flexible. I am definitely not rigid. I know how to go with the flow and "whatevah". I am the queen. But, wow, sometimes life really pushes that flexibility button and find myself being very...what's the word?...unflexible? or not as flexible as I thought.I have decided to take one day a week to run errands and do emails and such. I was spoiled in Accra to have an office helper to buy things for me or go to the post office etc, etc. I realize now how much time he saved me. Thursday I had a nice long list of things to do. But here, things never go the way you plan it. I should know this by now. What I thought would take an hour to fix my car key actually took 4 hours. And so I thought I would take my car to town to pick up some bigger items like chicken or crates of eggs but since they didn't finish my key I couldn't do that. I also wasn't able to do much emails because we did not have power that day and I did not have my computer charged. Since I thought I would have had my car, I didn't wear sunscreen because I thought I wouldn't be out much but that was not the case and I burned. It is so hard to be thankful in an unproductive day. (sigh) Also, during the week we had no electricity for a few days. And, also, I bought some street food...and as I was eating it I thought, "I think this may be off", and yes, I had some runny tummy issues and a fever of 102! Talk about wearing thin...I have been doing a study on heart transformation by Dallas Willard. One day it said to look at the habits that dwell in your body and reflect on the inner qualities that exist and how they do or don't dictate to your body. I was like, "ughhh...this is not a good week for me to reflect." I have so much impatience among other things.So glad God's faithfulness is more than I could hope or dream. So glad God loves me even when I am angry that things are not going my way or complaining. So glad I am sometimes flexible :) So glad I have hope that this is not all there is, this is just a blink. Real life will one day come. I'M WAITING FOR YOU JESUS!!
Language Evaluation
I had my evaluation yesterday. Afterwards, I sent off an email and I thought --let me just copy it here instead of trying to write again---
and I have listened.
I have not rebelled or turned away.Because the Sovereign Lord helps me,
I will not be disgraced.
Therefore, I have set my face like a stone,
determined to do his will.
And I know that I will not be put to shame.
then, Then, THEN!
I knew I had to kick it into gear with language learning. I told my leader to do an evaluation for me at the end of January. It will help me know where I am at and what is going well and what isn't. It is like a test, kind of. I am nervous. I already failed a goal I set for myself that I wanted to be through level 1 language study by Christmas. Yeah, what a joke! I don't know why this language doesn't stick in my brain. But, I will do the evaluation on Tuesday. I wanted to be able to go through all of the level 1 and move on to 2, but that won't happen. There are still a lot of things I need to learn in level 1. I am discouraged, but such is learning a language. I will only do part one of the evaluation and do part two in a couple of weeks.It has been a long week. Every day I was like, "is it Friday yet?". I met with my language helper every day. I went out to practice every day. I would come back home so tired and even angry. Angry at myself for not trying harder (that is me yelling at myself). Angry at some of these people who ask me to marry them when they already have 2 wives or people who ask me for a visa for USA or people who want my dress/shirt/sandals. The first few times you laugh but day after day after day after day...ugh!!! Come on people!!My house helper, who is great, did not show up on Thursday morning when it just so happened water was flowing and she could have washed clothes for me. I had a big pile since we haven't had water. Her phone was switched off so I couldn't call her. So, knowing we may not have water for another week, rolled up my sleeves, filled up some buckets and washed a couple loads of laundry by hand. Seriously. It bites. Exhausting.Then as the week finishes, I saw no progress with language. That just bites all around. Ok, maybe somewhere in me knows I have progressed in some way that I cannot see yet but what I hear coming out of my mouth doesn't sound like progress.THEN as the week finished I was so looking forward to giving my brain a break and just watching movies. Well, as you would have it, the power goes out at 9am. It didn't come back on until 3pm. "God, can it get any worse!!!???" I was so exhausted (and with no power means no fan, so no rest, otherwise you lay in bed and sweat...not a nice feeling) and so I dutifully started studying again. I cooked some food for the week too. So, it wasn't an all-for-naught-day off, but still.THEN I tell myself to stop acting so whiny because people have it way worse than I do. I have to remind myself of all the amazing things I have in my life. I even have mangoes. I usually finish off my dinner at night with a fruit. Mangoes are in season and I am in heaven. So, I was thinking, "some people love their piece of chocolate, or glass of wine. I got me a lovely mango...(sigh)".May the language continue...only if there is a mango for me to eat!Thanks for praying for me!