Every morning, well, most mornings anyways, I start with my time with Jesus. Praying and talking to Him-praying, thanking, asking. It goes so well. He teaches me from the Bible and I am really learning things. But then...I walk out the door.I turn into a different person. Like, I forget how much I am loved and therefore should love others. It's like my eyebrows cinch together and I find myself yelling at kids, "don't disrespect me, don't disrepect me!" I called a man "stupid" under my breath and my friend heard. Stupid is very insulting to someone. Where are these things coming from? The Bible will say, what is in your heart comes out of your mouth. Yikes. It's true.The week was rough. It was hot, language did not seem to improve. I found one day I came home happy but then realized it was because I was doing random-errand-list things and not much language. Language really sucks me dry. I can't find a balance with it. It is so consuming.I do have highlights. Like being with Rafia and sewing. Like hearing something someone said and realizing I can respond without a 1 minute of hesitation. Like, not doing language on Friday because of Good Friday. (Another reason to call it good:))Not going to sit and whine. Life is hard. I will rejoice that I serve a risen Savior. One who loves me and walks with me. One who loves me unconditionally and gives me brothers and sisters around the world. I am going to choose thankfulness, though, I really just want to cry and go home.Here are some pics from our Easter Weekend Program:
God is always good. God is Love. The joy of the Lord is my strength. Holding on to truth this week.Love you.