My holiday in Wisconsin is almost finished. I fly back on January 8th. It has been...(insert pause and sigh) something I needed. It was just this past Thursday when I was sitting in the recliner and I thought something felt funny. I asked myself, "what is this feeling?" and then laughed and realized it was a feeling of rest. A feeling of being relaxed. No pressures. No strain. No guilt. Do you ever get to that point?! It is a beautiful state to be in!
Let me tell you about the pros and cons about this past vacation. (Are there really any cons for the family I am in or the place I am from?)Let's start with Pros:
breathing thru your nose and the cold air burns
quietness of being in the country
climbing into bed with lots of blankets
exercising with my brother Michael
worshiping with my home church
borrowing sweaters from my auntie and jewelry from my mom
being driven around
seeing my best friend and many other old friends
gasping at the maturity of my growing nieces and nephews
ham
my dad having a handicapped sticker and can park close to all the doors
crazy warm...relatively warm, for Wisconsin temps
frozen custard ice cream
Cons:
Having to bundle up just to walk out to the car.
Hats ruining my hair :)
Layers of clothes (shirts) take forever to retuck in after going to the bathroom
Do you see how wonderful my time home has been?
Another good thing: Knowing my time has finished and being ok with going back to Ghana.
I know I can't be on holiday forever. I know I need to get back. But I think I am a bit fearful...I know how hard last year was and I know what is in store for me this year. More language learning. But God is still merciful and full of grace. He is bigger than I can imagine and can handle my fears and doubts. I have to just leave it with him. I think I just need to get past the starting and be in the midst of it.
Be praying!