I did not write last week because we were celebrating Fela and Puii's baby girl naming ceremony. They do naming ceremonies here in the Northern Region. They gave her an English name- Mercy. They gave her a Northeast Indian name- which I cannot pronounce. And now they gave her a Dagbani name - Daliri. It means good fortune. This girl is so cute! Reverend DooShik gave a message in Dagbani for all to hear the gospel. There was food and lots of people. It did not rain (it is rainy season). It was great to see the missionaries in the midst of the community. I am very thankful to see strong relationships. Some of the women from church came to cook. Some neighbors cleaned. The men Fela sit with all came and sat and laughed. (Such a man thing! Ha! :)) I asked Fela and Puii how they thought it went and they just heaved out a tired sigh and said they enjoyed it but are glad it's over.
Ok...let's be honest...the real reason I did not write was because I was ashamed. Ashamed at my bad attitude. Ashamed at letting 2 days pass in Gushegu and not really learning anything. Ashamed of all my whining. Ashamed I return to Tamale and people wonder if I am learning anything in Gushegu. It was/is hard and discouraging and I just make it worse by being miserable.
So, Monday thru Wednesday came around and I was determined and prayed and did all I could but...nothing. Of course, you will tell me I got more out of it than nothing, but I felt like nothing is sinking in. Nothing is coming out. Nothing is making sense. But I just keep at it.
Thursday was just another day but I really think people were praying for me because I had so much VIM! I was out almost the whole day. I sat with some new ladies. I forced myself to put sentences together. I just couldn't figure out why I was enjoying this :) but did not dwell on it because I wanted the attitude/ feeling to stay!
Friday was not bad. I had lots of good opportunities but felt my ears closed up again and I couldn't grasp anything. Sigh...
Back to Tamale. I leave for Accra on Wednesday to help with a camp. They had to modify the week so I really am not doing very much. One aerobics work out in the morning and then a talk on health. I should be back to Tamale on Sunday.
Sorry you have to read my whinings...actually you dont have to! But thanks for making it to the end. Just know that I am ok. I will still keep at it. I need prayers. God loves me. There is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus. And I will hope!
Thanks. Love you.
